“Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave.” – Cheryl Strayed
One of the many qualities I admire about my son is his determination and single-mindedness with regards to the goals he sets for himself. I have learned a lot from him about “showing up” for life. I love that I can learn these fundamental life lessons from my own child.
I don’t want to let him down. I know at times I will. And we will be okay and move on when that happens….but paramount in my mind, as the mother of a teenage boy, is the knowledge that he is watching me like a hawk and has been for 13 years.
CCC100 is 12 weeks away and that’s not very many weeks, in training-for-a-100-mile-race terms!! It is time for a wee wake-up call for this mama. I am not taking my name off that entrants list for lack of proper training. No Way, No How.
So, as I have mentioned in previous posts, I have been toying with the idea of run commuting. (there are whole blogs about it and everything!) Running to and from work would significantly boost my mileage and my ability to squeeze more miles out of my average day. (the alternative way of doing this is getting up at 3AM, which I have done but can’t say I love). Smooshing all of my long runs into the weekends is yet another strategy which I have tinkered with that doesn’t work so well because: a) the boy in paragraph #1 of this post has 3-4 baseball games every weekend, and b) longass weekend morning long runs tend to make me tired/depleted/no-fun-mama for the rest of the weekend, and c) chores (someone has to take care of the house/yard and I am pretty much that someone). This is where run commuting comes in!!
Why am I not already doing it, you ask???? One word: wuss.
Yes, I’m scared! How silly is that!!?
This blog even succinctly outlined my fears for me!
“Disregard the initial, extremist thoughts that may enter your head when you think about run commuting: Namely, that it means you have to do it every day, only athletes are able to run like that, or you can’t because you need special facilities at your job to do so (shower).”
(to that list I will add: getting heckled for being that running dork with a backpack, getting hit by a bus, and feeling “stuck” without a car if my son needs me during the day)
Those are my fears and I will break them down:
- dork: yes, I might look dorky running along the road with a backpack but I already look dorky running & who the F cares anyway??? (also, my colleagues at work already think I am a weirdo for running so that part is covered)
- bus: I know how to run facing traffic, I do it all the time. This is no different.
- son: this is the biggie. I don’t plan to run commute 5 days per week, so I can be selective and cater somewhat to his needs and activities. There is also a bus that goes straight from my office to a few minutes’ walk from my house if I do need to hurry home.
So there ya go. I am writing about this here for some accountability, like with the 100-days.
I especially like this bit, from the Run Commuter blog:
“First of all, before all of the other pieces and components of run commuting/bike commuting/anything different is contemplated, you really need to say, “Hey, *&^% it! I’m going to do this and that’s that!” You need to tell yourself it will happen and not let your initial doubts get in the way of a goal you set for yourself. This applies not just to run commuting, but any time change is considered.”